Time for Another

the diary of our quest for baby number 2

I’m back :) Tuesday 4 August 2009

Filed under: comments,negative,positive,reduction,triplets — timeforanother @ 5:23 pm
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For today anyway! Can’t believe it’s been so many months since I last managed a post. Very remiss, but I have got an excuse, being a busy mama to my two wonderful kids. If can barely believe that our little boy turned 1 just a couple of weeks ago, and our beautiful daughter will celebrate her 4th birthday in a couple of weeks time.

I just caught up with some comments left here.  I’m always surprised to find them – I forget that there are people who find and read this blog (despite no advertising of it anywhere as far as I’m aware).  Other than spam, I decided early on to publish all comments made, whatever their content. Some might find this a bit bizarre but for the most part, I accept that the topic of selective reduction will produce strong reactions. Most of the comments I’ve received have been very nice with the odd more unpleasant one thrown into the mix. I don’t deny anyone the right to say what they feel, but it really disappoints me that the pro-lifers are so crude and unwilling to accept that some things in life are not black and white, however we would like them to be.  For sure, the decision may have been a lot simpler if I’d had such strong views. Then again, maybe not. I remember thinking at the time how it might have been if I’d had a faith (I don’t). Now that I’ve been in contact with other women who have been through SR – most of whom are practising Christians – I’m certain that it would have only made things more woolly. Ultimately I only have myself to answer to. My husband and I are lucky to have a strong marriage and friendship and we made the decisions we made together. If I’d wanted something different, I’m not entirely certain where we’d be right now. I strongly suspect that even with the strongest of relationships, ours may not have survived having triplets. Financially I know that it would have been pretty devastating even during the pregnancy – having time off when you’re self employed means no income. I can only imagine what might have been. And so, because it really doesn’t matter about all the infinite ‘what if’s’ now (what’s done is done), I choose to think positively about it all. We have an adorable little boy with a gorgeous and proud big sister. The twins I’m sure would have been equally adorable and gorgeous, and I like to think of them with a smile instead of a cry. We talk about them still – they are part of our lives and our family – just because they are no longer here with us in person, doesn’t mean they aren’t still the siblings to our surviving kids, or our children. They were more than just foetuses to us, I felt them moving and saw them on the scans. I feel I owe it to them to remember them and honour them, for they did exist, if only for a short time.  And no amount of sanctimonious commentary will ever make me feel any differently.

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Hoo-fucking-ray!! I’m pregnant! Tuesday 13 November 2007

After an uppy-downy kind of November where I had no pregnancy symptoms, a horrible throat/cough thing (still ongoing), a bad back and a very crotchety toddler daughter, all things pointed to another bfn. So, when my period didn’t show up yesterday – with none of my usual tell-tale signs – I thought maybe I’ve miscalculated, and it was due today… so I held off testing until this morning.

After a complete faff with the test (I’m not at my best in the mornings), it looked like I’d got myself a duff one as no lines at all came up. I tried to squeeze a few more drops out into a pot – oh the glamour!! – and nearly dropped it in the bath 😀 Anyway, after all the fumbling around, I took another look at the test, and two incredibly faint pink lines were appearing. They’ve got stronger and stronger and are now the positive one is thicker and darker than the test one… So, I’m pretty certain that counts as a positive result. My god, I’m pregnant!!

It’s funny how since deciding to go for number 2, it still feels quite strange when you see the positive test for real. Not nearly as scary as the first time mind you, but strange how yesterday it was a possiblility and today it’s real.

Now to start the merry-go-round of appointments, scans and myriad worries that all pregancies bring. If all goes well, we’re due our 2nd bundle of joy somewhere around 22nd July 2008. Whether we’ve made a boy or not is way down the list right now, having made the starts of a baby is plenty good enough for us 🙂

 

Back to CD1 Tuesday 16 October 2007

Filed under: bounty,fertile dates,ovulation,period,positive,sperm meets egg plan,testing — timeforanother @ 2:13 pm

At least the waiting is over. Period arrived with a vengeance very late last night so I guess today is technically CD2, but what the hey?! Someone over on the Bounty forums mentioned the ‘Sperm meets egg plan’ which sounds like a good, errr, plan – so long as we can maintain the stamina required for all that “trying” ;-p

Fertile dates this time around should be 23rd – 30th Oct (should ov on 29th) and we’re looking for a BFP (big fat positive) pregnancy test on 12th or 13th Nov. Fingers crossed for a successful (and fun!) month ahead.

 

Waiting Monday 15 October 2007

Filed under: down,dpo,positive,testing,things to do — timeforanother @ 12:45 pm

15dpo or CD1?? Still waiting for period to start, all signs point that way, although a teeny tiny part of me is still holding on to the hope that I may just be pregnant. One last pregnancy test left in the house which I absolutely am not going to use unless my period doesn’t show up by Wednesday – which would be 2-3 days late (and I’m usually like clockwork, 28 days spot on). Hate this waiting.

Had a good old cry on Saturday night about it all, and feel marginally better for it. Things learnt this month have been useful – I’m more aware of my body and it’s cycle; I know I have no will power when it comes to taking pregnancy tests, so I will limit the amount in the house; I will cut down on drinking; I will accept that I will get slightly obsessed with it all but try and take it in my stride.

 

Wahey! Sunday 30 September 2007

Filed under: fertile dates,ovulation,positive,testing — timeforanother @ 12:44 pm

Boy am I like clockwork! Exactly 14 days from 1st day of period, I’m ovulating. Those 2 little pink lines came up clear as anything today, after days of single line, negative results. And we’ve already taken advantage (and very very nice it was too!) Swim hard little fellas and make us a baby 🙂