Time for Another

the diary of our quest for baby number 2

24 weeks – baby is now ‘viable’ Tuesday 1 April 2008

Filed under: 24wks,decorating,house hunting,losing the baby,Uncategorized,viable,worries — timeforanother @ 10:15 am

Wow – this really is a big milestone to reach. I can’t help but remember the times when I really didn’t believe we would get here – everything seemed doomed with this pg and I truly believed that this little wriggler wouldn’t hold on. I still have an inkling that he might just turn up early but I’m more hopeful that it won’t be *too* early.

Everything is going ok – decorating continues, the bedroom has become a temporary storage facility, our dd is due back tomorrow (how I’ve missed her) and the house hunting is proving better each time – although we haven’t found THE ONE yet.

Off to visit my folks this weekend and I’m looking forward to some r&r, and a shopping trip to buy some much needed maternity jeans as I’m literally living in the one pair I have.

Still feeling enormous pangs of grief and guilt about the twins but I’m learning to live with them.


Nightmare Monday 11 February 2008

Filed under: dream,losing the baby,nightmare,worries — timeforanother @ 3:29 pm

Feeling unsettled even now after a particularly gruesome and real-feeling ‘dream’ last night. I dreamt that after having sex with my husband, there was loads of blood all down my legs then a clot fell out. When I looked at the clot, it was the tiny twins and the remaining baby which was bigger. I’m trying to be rational about it, but it’s really preying on my mind and I hope it’s not a bad omen.